Places I will Go

This project has taken me to many places lately. Places like David Bohm's book on creativity and Berdyaev's work titled "Meaning of Creativity." 

Then there is David Peat writing about David Bohm. 

And the Blackfoot Indian's discussion about language and creativity. 

Berdyaev spoke about the redemptive process and how creativity arises from the transformation. 

Then there was a discussion about archetypes and the transfer of technology in the contemporary culture, and the condition it left the recipient after the fact. 

The truth about the creative process is a long and winding road. It may be that I am making it much too complicated. And yet. 

What I do know is that much is required of me. I am confronted with much to think about and process. Some of it has become part of my DNA. I have discovered things in my past that required grieving. Unresolved events that I had not adequately taken care of. And growth opportunities that I have welcomed.

Are there other persons in the equation? Absolutely! 

The creative process will involve other individuals and personalities, and relationship is critical. And because we are not good at it, we need a lot of help, especially if we got off to a rocky start with the family of origin. (My beginnings were rife with much anger and abandonment.) Much growth and love and thus creative processes arise from the relationship and its functional working. That's what I am hearing and experiencing. 

What do I want to do with this journeying, I might ask? Or should I be asking, what do I want? 

I want to create images and tell others' stories through them.

I want to be the man that makes a difference for those I love. And be the man who loves the woman I choose to spend my life with.

I want to love my children and their children and tell their stories and make memories with them. 

I want to engage in dialogue with my friends and create something through these dialogues. 

I want to experience life as a free man. I want to grieve well the losses along the way. (tough work) I want to be the man known by God before I was formed in my mother's womb. Ya has known me for a long time. I want to be a fine art photographer that galleries clamor to represent. 

I want to make a difference and be an encouragement to my family and friends. 

I want to be the grandfather that knows his grandchildren well. I want to be a man that can love and love well.

I want to be that personality Berdyaev says is a universe unto itself. He states, "Personality contains the universe within it, but this inclusion of the universe takes place, not in the sphere of the object world but the sphere of the subject world, that is to say of existentialism. Personality is aware of itself as rooted in the realm of freedom, that is, in the realm of spirit. From that source, it draws the strength for its conflict and activity. This is the very meaning of being a person, of being free." 

I want to be a man that experiences the world in a genuinely subjective way and then can respond and engage creatively, experientially, and courageously. 

And I want to thank you for your love and encouragement on my journey! I hope I reciprocate as well.

That is what I want, and I will present my "wants" and trust I will journey well. I hope you do as well till we meet again for wonderful dialogue over a coffee or a meal with a glass of exquisite wine.